I think there will always be apart of me that will love you,
That will want you,
That will always fantasise a life with you,
That will always wish I could turn back the clock.
If only I could go back, relive my life, change almost every decision I’d made.
Looking back now I can’t understand how I could’ve been so stupid, so naive, so utterly oblivious to what was.
How could I not see what was so blatantly in front of me all along?
How could I be so blind?
But was I really? was I pushing away something that was always there?
Something that scared me.
Something that I was so terrified to ruin, that I didn’t do anything at all.
I was frozen.
I always so scared that if it didn’t work, if we didn’t work out, I’d ruin it, I’d ruin it all.
I’d loose my best friend…
How could I possibly wager that bet.
How could I possible risk you..
Risk us…
For something that I may have made up in my mind.
Did I make it up all along?
Or am I still that naive? Am I still that blind?
Did I make it all up?
Is it all in my head..
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