it's not you, it's me.

i've tried my hardest to explain why i feel the way i feel, but i still don't think you get it. the reason why i'm scared that i'll loose you, the reason why i'm paranoid about you texting her, or going off for 'chats'. the reason why i read into things too much and the reason why i get jealous all the time. she's been doing it for years. you seem to think it's because i don't trust you, and you tell me that your not my ex's. i know that, and i know that you would never do anything like that to hurt me, i trust you. it's her and everyone else i don't trust; it's because it's happened to me over and over, after forgiving and constantly wanting to think the best of someone. and getting fucked over, again and again and again. it's because my faith in people was destroyed. i want to trust, but it's simple; i can't.