Kill me

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me

So won't you kill me, so I die happy?

My heart is yours to fill or burst to break or bury

Or wear as jewelry, whichever you prefer

I can’t wait to wake up next to you 

 

i’m sure i’ve told you once or twice whilst i was drunk but i wish i could go back to the airport, when you were leaving. i’d run after you, like i wanted to. i’d hug you again, soaking up the last moments with your arms wrapped around me. i miss you. 

build me up, break me down

 

Whenever I go for my walks it’s always whilst the sun is going down 

Every time i look up to the sky, I see you 

In the golden and pink sunsets

In the warmth

But not only in the sunsets or the last ray of light from the day 

I see you in the clouds too

In the deeper, darker parts

Because you aren’t just light, you’re deep and dark too

I don’t think I’d love you the way I do, if you were made up of just light 

I love you because of your darkness 

You have the same kind of darkness that I do 

& I think our demons play nicely together 

It’s better to feel pain than nothing at all 

And I wish I was crying on your shoulder 

But there would be no tears 

Pour me out

Wake up in the morning and it's not so bad,

I can taste you on my lips and it makes me sad.
There's a part of me that just wants you back,
You're the one thing I want that I never did have.
That I never did have.

Fill me up,
Steam me up,
Hear me shout,
Tip me over and pour me out

Pour me out on the concrete, next to your feet
Do I have to cry out?
Can you hear me?
Oh, just to be with you.

 Life is anything but fair 

 touch me like you do in my dreams 

 

If I had to talk about soulmates

I’d tell them about us 

Oh hey there

I love you 

I miss you 

What’s new? 

It’s harder now. 

Because I know, you know. 

Before, I just hoped you knew.  

But now I know, that you know. 

And I know you, you love me too. 

And that makes it harder than ever. 

I miss you

If only I’d had the guts to tell you all the things that consume my mind. 

 I saw you in my dreams again last night. 

I love you.

I could write endless hours of nonsense but you’ll still never know. 

Did I make it all up?

I think there will always be apart of me that will love you, 

That will want you, 

That will always fantasise a life with you, 

That will always wish I could turn back the clock. 

If only I could go back, relive my life, change almost every decision I’d made. 

Looking back now I can’t understand how I could’ve been so stupid, so naive, so utterly oblivious to what was. 

How could I not see what was so blatantly in front of me all along? 

How could I be so blind? 

But was I really? was I pushing away something that was always there? 

Something that scared me. 

Something that I was so terrified to ruin, that I didn’t do anything at all. 

I was frozen. 

I always so scared that if it didn’t work, if we didn’t work out, I’d ruin it, I’d ruin it all. 

I’d loose my best friend… 

How could I possibly wager that bet. 

How could I possible risk you.. 

Risk us… 

For something that I may have made up in my mind. 

Did I make it up all along? 

Or am I still that naive? Am I still that blind? 

Did I make it all up?  

Is it all in my head..